Breathing Underwater

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"Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing."
Sylvia Plath

Upon close examination of her reflection in the mirror, something is quite vividly apparent. There is life in her eyes again, a sincerity in her smile, a warmth in her heart. But even then, there are times when she does what she does to feel closure. Acting upon impulse, ignoring the feelings of another. At times, she is merely living in the moment, wanting to wipe the dirty window clean; that window she has looked through for the last time. She regrets nothing that has happened in recent days, and prior evenings... she is not selfish, she is merely considering herself for once. She is ensuring that her heart remains safe. She is ensuring that there is no opportunity for repeated heartache. A moment, an instant, she barely remembers it happening. What she does remember is feeling content, and ready to move on. A heart that held on so dearly for so many nights can finally let go. Once it is let go, the most terrifying question of all remains.