Monday, March 3, 2008

Wine (whine) with my cheese

Photo: James Crowle on Flickr

I've been under the weather for the last few days, kind of feeling like I'm in my own little world. I managed to escape this feeling for few hours when my parents came to visit yesterday. We ate, drank and wandered around the city. I am so lucky. I have the most amazing family. My back pain lessened (or maybe I just stopped thinking about it) for the first time since I woke up Friday morning. Now it hurts again. I wish that I had the means to hire a personal masseuse.

A friend was telling me about a girl he knows who says she's smart, but doesn't know anything. Book smart--- maybe there's something to that, but then again, maybe not. I guess you learn when you are open to it, and are given the opportunity to learn. I suppose, a lot of the time, I've created my own opportunities. I'm still learning, always, even in the silences. Buckets and buckets overflowing with learning and knowing- and I still don't know enough. I still wish I knew more. But I like that I'm willing. Re-reading some random writing I've done- I wonder, sometimes, where these ideas come from- whom and what sparks them, and why I feel the need to write them down in books, one after another.

Maybe I should surrender wanting to control everything all the time. Give up, give in. I've been so fortunate, so privileged, to have family and friends for good dinners with wine and cheese, to be able to watch the ocean from the comfort of my apartment, to have people teach me things I need to learn. I am so blessed. fortunate. privileged. honored. grateful. overwhelmed.

8 comments:

suzie said...

i think surrendering the need to control everything will make you much happier, my dear...

PatZ said...

controlling everything doesn't leave much room for spontaneity, which is always fun.
Not as fun, being under the weather. Know what solves that? Ice cream.

Jennifer Stoddart said...

How true that is...and another thing that solves it, is beer- leading us back to our original idea: ice cream beer floats! Sheer brilliance!

Miss 604 said...

wine + cheese = happiness. especially if you visit that european deli on bidwell between robson and haro. *bliss*

Jennifer Stoddart said...

I haven't been to that deli yet...thanks for the tip, Rebecca. I will definitely make a stop there soon!

Jennie said...

:-)

J said...

You can see the ocean from your apartment???????

I am so jealous I may never come back here again.

- J @ Hollow-Star.net

Jennifer Stoddart said...

You better come back, J! :P
Cute new pic, by the way!