Sunday, October 7, 2007

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

The other day someone asked me an interesting question: “What is your favourite journey? It could be spiritual, it could be travel, it could be a journey that you need to go on.” It was a difficult question to answer. I have been fortunate to have had the opportunity to travel a fair amount in my lifetime. I have seen many countries and experienced cultures which have impacted me enormously; but it's hard to find one thing that stands out. I mean, in a way I find every day to be an unbelievable journey. Especially over the last year and a half, I have been on an amazing journey of self discovery. I feel like I'm finally figuring out who I am. I am greatly anticipating my move into a new place that will be all mine and relishing the idea of a new neighbourhood to discover. It has been said that the things you fear are undefeatable, not by their nature, but by your approach. I've been trying so hard to change my approach. A wise friend always reminds me how important it is to lose "the fear" in life. I have moved leaps and bounds ahead with this concept in mind. I know I still have a long way to go...down the road to being really confident and fearless, but looking back, I must acknowledge how far I have come--growing up, becoming more and more myself all the time.

It’s funny, sometimes I find myself in moments with his huge grin that won't go away and I'm like, "I am so happy!" It's a nice feeling. It's the best feeling in the world, actually. And when you have those moments it takes a lot of work not to be afraid that they'll disappear. I get afraid that they'll disappear with the acknowledgement. Conversely, I want to embrace those moments because I just appreciate them so much. That's what today was all about; being thankful for what I have. For a long time, I tried to capture every precious moment by taking millions of photos, or writing it all down--but I'd almost miss the moment because of that. It's hard to learn to just let things happen. Today I spent a perfect Thanksgiving Sunday at my mom and dad's house-also joined by my brother, we feasted upon a scrumptious turkey dinner and enjoyed each other's company. I am so blessed to have a family that I can always count on; even when I fall on my ass and screw up, they are there, always. They let me be me through the laughter, the tears, the good times and the bad. There is nothing I am more thankful for than having the three amazing souls who joined me at the table this evening to call my family.

I'm a girl who's trying to get her chops down. I'm not always going make the right decision; but every decision I've made has been about how to keep evolving, how to keep creating and how to keep learning. The best way not to do that is to create in order to please outside opinion. Some days, things are still a little blurry. All I can do is be honest. Beyond that, it's up to the graces of whatever.

2 comments:

johnny said...

Congratulations on this next journey in your life Jen. You're on fire!

Anonymous said...

I really like the blurry effect of that photo.