Monday, June 25, 2007

Take me to the shore, and wrap me in a blind tomorrow

Here I am, back from an unplanned blogging hiatus...I suppose I just wasn't feeling inspired for a while there, so a little break was needed. My head has been too busy to articulate thoughts clearly in recent months. And beyond that, for the first time in a long while, I have actually been really happy.

I decided that it was time to update things, so please be patient with me as I get used to working with Blogger and until I can figure out how to transfer my archives over from Friendster...they date back to my inaugural post in March 2005. It's hard to believe that I have been blogging for that long!

The last year has been a whirlwind. I have followed rainbows and chased my dreams. Most importantly, I have faced so many of my fears, which is exactly what I set out to do. I have come through some mind blowing transitions with a sense of contentment and wisdom. That's not to say that I haven't encountered some bumps along the way. I have certainly been faced with some challenges. But I'm discovering that I'm stronger than I thought I was, and what a relief that is!

Now, I'm in a phase of transition again. I had always imagined that when this time came, there would be little pieces of my heart scattered all over the place. I was wrong. My heart is intact. I stepped off this carousel all on my own. And there's no way in hell that I'm ever jumping back on for another ride.
When I write a book, he will not be a chapter but a feeling throughout- not an event, a vein of emotion. I have begun to realize what I truly value in life and recognize what's really important to me. I want to stay connected to my roots, to my family and to my true friends. I feel so blessed to have such an outstanding group of people in my support system. I am a lucky, lucky girl. These days I'm not only happier and laughing more, but I've learned things, about love, about being a woman, about what I want and do not want in friends and partners...about how to take care of myself.


Tricia said...

nice to have you blogging again.. you've been missed.

Jennifer Stoddart said...

Thanks for always being a loyal reader Tricia!