Monday, June 25, 2007

Take me to the shore, and wrap me in a blind tomorrow

Here I am, back from an unplanned blogging hiatus...I suppose I just wasn't feeling inspired for a while there, so a little break was needed. My head has been too busy to articulate thoughts clearly in recent months. And beyond that, for the first time in a long while, I have actually been really happy.

I decided that it was time to update things, so please be patient with me as I get used to working with Blogger and until I can figure out how to transfer my archives over from Friendster...they date back to my inaugural post in March 2005. It's hard to believe that I have been blogging for that long!

The last year has been a whirlwind. I have followed rainbows and chased my dreams. Most importantly, I have faced so many of my fears, which is exactly what I set out to do. I have come through some mind blowing transitions with a sense of contentment and wisdom. That's not to say that I haven't encountered some bumps along the way. I have certainly been faced with some challenges. But I'm discovering that I'm stronger than I thought I was, and what a relief that is!

Now, I'm in a phase of transition again. I had always imagined that when this time came, there would be little pieces of my heart scattered all over the place. I was wrong. My heart is intact. I stepped off this carousel all on my own. And there's no way in hell that I'm ever jumping back on for another ride.
When I write a book, he will not be a chapter but a feeling throughout- not an event, a vein of emotion. I have begun to realize what I truly value in life and recognize what's really important to me. I want to stay connected to my roots, to my family and to my true friends. I feel so blessed to have such an outstanding group of people in my support system. I am a lucky, lucky girl. These days I'm not only happier and laughing more, but I've learned things, about love, about being a woman, about what I want and do not want in friends and partners...about how to take care of myself.

2 comments:

Tricia said...

nice to have you blogging again.. you've been missed.

Jennifer Stoddart said...

Thanks for always being a loyal reader Tricia!