Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I'll trip, fall, pick myself up and walk unafraid

"Fear teaches you how to improve your life. Go where your fear lives, and conduct an interview. If you and your fear are not already good friends, this is a fine time to get acquainted."

That's what my horoscope said today. It's ironic because dealing with, trying to overcome and manage "the fear" have been a theme in my life over the last year or so. I've come to the conclusion that no real harm can come from facing your fears. Lessons are learned, mistakes are made- good or bad: we just keep evolving.

Sometimes it's good to let go a little bit. I've always been a bit of a control freak, a perfectionist. These days, I'm trying to let loose a little more. While I recognize that putting all your eggs in one basket isn't necessarily always the smartest thing to do, when it comes to certain situations, it has to be all or nothing. Nobody knows what is going to happen in life. I'm at a point now where I'm just going to choose to live it. Life is just too short not to take a chance. Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Hearts break and hearts mend. Some things are just meant to be. And if they aren't, well they can still be one hell of a ride. And I've figured out along the way that I'm a much tougher cookie than I used to be. Sometimes you just gotta "love like you've never been hurt and dance like nobody's watching."

I've spent so much of my life worrying and holding back- wasted so much energy feeling low and self conscious. And the thing about worrying, is that it usually doesn't accomplish anything. I'm sure that I'll always think too much and overanalyze and want to discuss, as Geminis it's what we do best. I just can't let that stop me from taking in all that I can. I have spent far too long sitting and wishing and waiting. Now, finally, it's all happening. And I'm having a freaking ball.


Anonymous said...

how well said...carpe diem as they say. bravo to you for taking control of your own destiny.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you started to write again. It sounds like a lot has happened to you in the past few months and that you're headed in the right direction. Best of luck & lots of happiness. <3

Jennifer Stoddart said...

Thanks so much for the sweet and encouraging comments folks!