Monday, September 22, 2008
Back to some kind of autumn feeling; the rain, and bundling up. I was delighted to discover that the heat in my apartment had come on this evening.
I've been a bit of a maniac lately. Alternating between obsessively cleaning and making a mess of my living quarters. Papers are everywhere, highlighters, catalogues, books, post-its, photos, piles of pieces of my life. I'm deciding what should be erased, and what I should cling to.
The attempt to try and convince is tiring on my bones.
I had a reality check this weekend. It made me see what I need to be like, and what I'm not like anymore. It made me wonder what I want, and why it is that I don't know exactly what I want.
There's a light, dizzy feeling- it's in my throat and the bottom of my feet. I keep ignoring it.
A quiet night in...
I like this night.
I love the fall. I'm wearing my favourite wool sweater and drinking a mug of hot chocolate.